move along, just to make it through

I was sitting downstairs, doing my homework.
Or at least, trying to.
It's kinda difficult with all these thoughts running through my mind. Thoughts of anger and sorrow about the things that have happened the last few months and are still going on. Thoughts of how to make these things better. I can't see the bright side right now, although I know there is one. I only have to get used to the changes that are about to happen. Now I always say change is good, but that doesn't mean it's easy to accept it. You need time, just to see how it's working out. And yes, you'll see it was the best thing. And you'll know it is what we'll all get better from. Still. some people can make it very difficult to see that. People who maybe do not realise they're being stupid, or who don't realise their actions are disrespectful amongst others. Normally, I hate those people. But it's hard to hate people who are close to you. It's difficult to be angry with them and at the same time be nice to them. You always saw them as someone to look up to, and then in one moment that can all change. You can't respect them anymore, they aren't worth to look up to anymore, but you can't let them go because, at the same time, they mean so much to you.

You have those times in which practically everything goes wrong. You try to make the best of everything, and though that works out, you still have those weak moments in which you maybe can't stop crying, or can only see the negative side of everything. Those moments seriousely suck, but you need them to get up again. After such a moment, you know it can only get better. I know it's hard, but dare to dream. It's the best thing you can do, you have nothing to lose.


xoxox